Sometimes I feel like everything will be OK. Living in an area with an enormous amount of pregnant women and/or new babies is difficult. We had a great day yesterday…I hadn’t cried all morning, then on our way home from breakfast and hanging out with sister and niece we passed a billboard for LDS hospital that said something like “New rooms for new moms” with a couple cradling their infant. Cue hysterical sobbing.
Don’t read this if you’re depressed
February 15th, 2009 · 12 Comments
Categories:Utahrds, confession, miscarriage, too bad I don't have mental health coverage
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Miss Pants, what can I say, except you are a strong and wonderful woman. You will get through this. But I wish you’d not had to get through it at all and things had gone as planned.
Being where you are I suspect will make things harder to deal with, as you’ve already pointed out. But please know that people from near, far and sort of far away are thinking with you with warm and comforting thoughts.
You and your guy take care of yourselves. That is paramount right now, you hear me?
Oh, honey, I wish you didn’t have to hurt right now. It just doesn’t seem fair. Know that you are loved.
Thank you for your kind words. I feel very lucky to have found my perfect match. There is no way I could make it through this without his love and support. Seriously, he deserves a fucking medal. <3
Sarah,
Not fair at all…but glad I have an excellent set of support between Mike, family and friends. At least we’re not in this alone.
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I know your pain. We just lost our baby 2-14-09 @ 11 weeks along.
My thoughts are with you at this time. I second taking care of yourself – and allow yourself to feel all the emotions you’re feeling. What you’re going through is really hard and takes a lot of time. Treat yourself to a spa or vacation to Vegas (a decidedly non – child friendly place).
I wish I knew what the person three above said…probably exactly the right thing. Girl, I hope for you comfort and peace as soon as you can possibly have those things.
I remember after my miscarriage, every single TV show I watched had a pregnant person or someone having a baby on it. I actually had to stop watching TV for a bit because I would get so upset. I remember watching an episode of Las Vegas where Molly Sims’ character was pregnant and everyone kept calling her fat and I got so pissed off because she wasn’t fat and OMFG she was pregnant and I wasn’t and I wanted to be so badly and how fucked up is it that I’m getting upset about a fake pregnant person?
It sucks but as another commenter stated – allow yourself to feel like you are. Be mad, scream, cry and curse as pregnant mormons (either out loud or silently – whichever you prefer).
And I’m so happy that you have someone so supportive to help you through this.
Um, I think I just received my first Japanese spam! I used an online translator…thought about posting it in the comments, but I think we all know what spam sounds like.
livelaughlove4ever,
I am so sorry for your loss.
aerin,
Thank you.
punchlinewalking,
Thanks, I hope for those things as soon as possible, as well.
SM,
On Valentine’s Day we went on a strange field trip to a sporting goods (eh, hunter’s paradise) store for giggles and shit. We were both surprised and how angry we BOTH felt toward many of the people in the store…wandering around with so many kids they were literally losing track of their kids. I’m glad I have someone supportive as well, otherwise I have no idea how I would get through this.
Pants – just dropping a line to let you know it’s okay to be pissed off/sad/upset for as long as you need. And to let you know there’s someone alllll the way on the east coast who’s thinking of you and sending you good thoughts and love.
When I was going through the chemo and we didn’t even know if my female parts would work again I hated every pregnant women (real or fictitious) I came into contact with. I yelled at someone at work who whined about being pregnant and uncomfortable. It shut her up good.
I am thinking about you all the time and sending you all my good energy! I think acknowledging your feelings is the first step in healing, and you luckily have a supportive forum in which to do that. And, I know that Mike is being amazing. He will help you through this and you will help each other through this.
Sending you so much love! xoxo